“There are days or weeks or even months when I read the Bible and there are no grand epiphanies.
There are whole seasons of Sundays when I sing praise and feel nothing.
There are times of prayer where the silence kills me.
There are great Christian books and podcasts that I eat up which don’t budge my spiritual life.
There are too màny times when I doubt the very existence of God and the sending of His son. It can all feel like a crazy lie.
I’m probably being too honest — but I’ve found out that I’m not the only one who feels this way.
It’s in those times that I ask myself, “Am I out of love with God somehow? Am I losing my Faith here? How do I get back to where I used to be?”
But I keep reading my Bible. I keep singing on Sundays. I keep praying. I soak in books and sermons. I serve. I enjoy the company of mature Christians. I enjoy the fellowship of the broken.
And you know what? Sometimes the clouds part and God comes through and His love squeezes my heart and I fall to my knees remembering how good He is. Then I read Scripture and can’t stop weeping and I turn on Christian songs in my car full blast and sing out loud enough to scare the traffic. I serve with shaking hands and get convicted by those sermons and soak in God’s goodness all over again.
So I’ve learned over time: I wasn’t really out of love with God. I’m just a fragile human being who changes as much as the weather. I was setting a ridiculous standard for myself that can’t be defined by self-pressuring parameters. I was tricked by the enemy into judging my flesh.
My faith is based on His grace and not My feelings. And I think I need to relax.”
-J.S (from “This Post”)
The beautiful piece above was, aforementioned, not written by me, but it has spoken to me over and over, and it just felt right to share, in the hopes that it would help someone out there. More of these are in the pipeline, hopefully.
(On a sidenote, please let me know in the comment section if you would want me to do a post on my list of favourite blogs.)
Thank you, as always, for reading.